2020

i turned 20 yesterday

and also published my first book
the book will be *hopefully* approved
in the next few days
so stay tuned for a link

but first
let’s talk about yesterday

yesterday i performed my poetry
in front of my close friends
a 30ish minute set
full of narration
character play
and poetic release

we breathed together
we felt in communion
and we shared deep presence

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if you know me
you’ll know i gave a
speech in high school
that changed my life

since then i’ve searched for a stage
larger than myself
to find that feeling again
to feel the profound sense of belonging
elicited through the radiant feel of a collective

guess what?

i found it!

and it was more beautiful
than i thought it could ever be

there is a wisdom
to quality over quantity

to having an intimate
captivated
group of feelers

to having my best friends
and greatest companions
witness and co-create
pure life with me

i have a habit of shapeshifting
of being a different person
in front of different people

don’t get me wrong

it’s been a great privilege
to play around with my personality
and be a chameleon

but on that stage
i was laid bare

there was no choice
but to strip away
the subconscious filters
and conscious indentations
i had become so used to
inhabiting

the truest version
an accurate
authentic depiction of myself
was put on display yesterday

and i loved it

thank you to all the beautiful humans
who made the trek
and celebrated my special day with me
or shall i say, our special day

-

these last few weeks have been
full of binary
although
there’s a line which cuts through
the boundary

and i can’t
get enough of it

-

what a gift
this life is

what a gift
you are
to me

keep being
you
i’ll keep being
me

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life is so delicious

i’ll see you soon.